i wish i was as stupid as you thought i was

i am expected to believe the most visible of
lies,
the ones that were told to keep me from getting
hurt,
and if only i weren't smart enough to see the
truth,
then maybe i'd be okay right now,
right now,
as i pound these letters out with such fury
and such hatred
not for you but for
everyone,
everyone who makes humans do these things that they do,
these horrible things that tear you apart
from the inside and
rip you to shreds starting at your
heart...
i know exactly how this story ends
and i wish i didn't,
wish i was stupid enough to
not see past my own nose,
but i'm not,
and it kills me